Resolutions
A quick post to highlight some of the things (good and bad) that happened this past year. First off... 2009 was not all that great for me. My girlfriend moved away and we went downhill from there. As I inch toward 50, I become more self-aware. I realize, for instance, that I'm much better on paper as a potential mate than in real life. I realize how set in my ways I actually am... and it's not a good thing. I am a creature of habit and when you're my age, you have a lot of habits. I'm working on a post that will touch on that, but... 2009 taught me that you're never too old to learn from your mistakes... even at 41. There were a few good things. I was featured on my friend's site... the lovely and renowned sex blogger/goddess extraordinaire, The Beautiful Kind. I fell in love with Peruvian food, reconnected with friends/family I'd lost along the way and managed to avoid a trip to the hospital. Still... not a banner year, no.
I turn 42 next year, but you know... I have a lot of growing up to do. I need to work on controlling my temper; I get frustrated very easily and I'm too old to be so childish. I need to call my dad and sister more often. I need to learn how to be a loyal friend without it coming at the expense of my relationships. You see... my best friend (a girl) has been staying with me for awhile now. She moved out from Chicago and ... how can you ask someone to leave who is always been there for you? She's in Chicago at the moment (visiting family) and... her mom is applying for a loan to help get her a place of her own. I'm happy for her, but more so... I'll be happy when I have the freedom to give myself, 100%, to the girl I love. She deserves that attention. I need to be a better boyfriend. I need to be a better man. 2010 or otherwise.
Happy New Year...
Buddha
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Wishing you a sweet and wonderful New Year full of love, laughs and life. Poppet.
Thanks Poppet. You, too...